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Watergirls
03:12
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Rush to my room
Clothing askew
Nod three times like
‘Might love you’
You told them I’d drowned
They took word for whim
But now they’ve all found
I knew how to swim
Watergirls, we’re not gonna buy it
We’re already counting dead violets
Heaven help the watergirls
Fell in love with other worlds
Blown all your time
Rude, soft-eyed youth
Chasing ghosts and
Bending the truth
You said I was gone
Like acid washed skin
But I’ve just moved on
To healthier sins
Now watergirls, we can’t see tomorrow
Only concerned with the right here and right now
Heaven help the watergirls
Fell in love with other worlds
Rue, rue, rue
Some for me, some for you
Boys, boys, boys, don't fight over me
I don't love you and you never loved me
Fuck to be or not to be
Fuck your weeping willow trees
Fuck your long soliloquies
Won’t you stop stepping on my lines
Heaven help the water girls
We fell in love with the solace of other worlds
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Alexander
04:13
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I’m always raising far more questions than I can answer
Stirring up turbulence, changing my name and my stances
A stanza in 6/8 then 2/4, then commontime standard
Slowly realizing it’s to my own notions I pander
In chicken scratch penmanship tell of my time as a dancer
Years as a coloratura and lanes changed by chances
Choose when to heal but know it rescinds comforts handed
You’re coming down slow through the clouds now, go on, take a gander
Alexander
Where I wandered
Big and grandstand
My eyes wonder
Keep that spire in your sightlines
And you’ll be just fine
People here put sugar on top of their cappuccinos
Someone on Sunday got down on one knee and he proposed
The rest of the girls we were with were a flurry of idol
I’d been too preoccupied with being artfully woeful
We lay on the floor in the sun from your third story window
We stay out until the sun rises inhaling techno
And dancing to nicotine streaming down in flashing spirals
I'm learning that maybe to keep you there’s hopes I should let go
Oh Alexander
Where I wandered
Will you still stand
When I loose wonder
I can already see the signs
And I leave tonight
And with that spire outside my sightline
How do I define fine?
I catch the blossoms that fall from the trees
As we sit by the river in May’s evening breeze
I watch you give someone directions back to the Spree
Can you give me some to travel this river between?
Alexander
Lighter now
Though I’ve gained a year
Some stillborn thoughts buried here
Cheers to nineteen
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3:33
02:52
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Little devil little devil
Knobbly knees and black hair disheveled
You better be, better really be very careful
Don't end up like me
Don't end up a vessel.
She orders coffee same color as her hair
She walks the halls of the quad with a vacant stare
She’s lost all sense and feel, lost all sense of care
She needs someone there
Half past three and she’s the witching hour queen
Far too tired to fall asleep
Black ink on her skin
Some say that it’s me
In pale relief
And a letter in a locket she keeps loosing
She’s half the devil in her
Only half the good and half the bad
A rising water level pins her
But she’d rather that than finish her undergrad
She watches student films alone in the back row
She watches as fads come, watches as they go
She doesn’t really know
If she’s too fast or slow
Half past three and she’s the witching hour queen
Far too tired to fall asleep
Wearing your old mint green scrunchie
Builds her effigy
In the letter in a locket she keeps loosing
Little devil little devil
(witching hour queen)
Knobbly knees and black hair disheveled
(far too tired to fall asleep)
You better be, better really be very careful
Don't end up like me
Don't end up a vessel.
I watch her pass like a sweater turned inside out
She only smiles when her past she touts
She’s thirsty in the flood, sinking in the drought
Don't even know what her own art’s about
Half past three and she’s the witching hour’s heir
Far too tired to destroy or to repair
If I find her now, she might still be there
She needs someone there
I’ll be someone there
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Liturgy
00:54
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I remember the corner of Caroll and West Washington Avenue, I was just leaving the coffee shop as the storm brew: one of those summer fling things that comes with no warnings; just flung out of space. Chased away all the sunbathers on the lawn of the state capitol I took shelter under the awnings of Grace Episcopal’s big red door.
No umbrella, just my first novella in a now sopping wet, water warped, spiral bound yellow notebook I was clutching under my thin flannel in a feeble attempt to salvage the pencil when you came to join me. We stood there in silence: midwestern stoicism at it’s finest until the clouds parted and you turned and smiled and wished me luck and went your way.
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Wednesday Flat
05:20
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A wall in this city was built and torn down prenatal re: us
But divide breeds ghosts
And a host of them stand here to write
A treaty graffitied on crumbling concrete
You said you sensed no change in us
But in saying that I knew you must
Thought I’d always know where I stand with you
But on this dance floor, subway platform that becomes less and less true
It seems to me
You say you’ve gotten so blunt here
You’ll miss that when you come back home you say
That I remind you of a bird sometimes
Though you can’t put a finger on the reason or rhyme
I chime in thinking it could be my flighty ways
My pointed nose, or my lanky frame
Your hair settles back on your cheekbones
As the train cars pass by
And you forget how quiet I can get sometimes
And no one is at fault
No one is to blame
Everyone knows friction is the way you start a flame
A block of black basalt
a falsified exaltation
Illumination in the dark of this
Seedy subway station
I thought maybe if I stayed still
Blood would stop circulating
Thought if I kept that space unfilled
I could keep love percolating
But standing ground
Is not always the soundest decision
No matter how much you wish it
The rescission isn't ever what you envision;
A saint in remission
Makes a precision incision
The excision of youth
Is a tooth pull
I went along with the vision; that’s the kindest thing to do
But now they’ve gone and built up a wall between me and you
You’re a woman this year
I'm still twisted up in childish fears
The beer goes down easy as the candle goes out
Tears in tap water the sediment sorts out from doubt
So it’s clear in two vials: the love and the loss
I'm aware, at least, this time
Of what both choices cost
And no one is at fault
No one is to blame
Everyone knows friction is the way you start a flame
A block of black basalt
Some sort of forced explantation
Education hard to accept in this
Seedy subway station
And I keep thinking about that evening
You told me stones are like attraction:
At the base of firmament
If you’re feelin’ it
You’re hard to sway
But the months that you have been away
Shift time, techno, tectonic plates
And I hop the lines
States ones and timezones
Laws chewed in limestone
Where’d my home go?
When’s the sediment settle anyway?
Oh, precious metal
Have I mined these moments dry?
Have I lost your love or is it just shifting with time?
You point out something written on the wall
But we’re too close I can't see it at all
Say its the theses (with adult derision)
That will activate and result in the schism
I’ll need to take flight to witness
Insight only sets in at a distance
when melody’s decomposed, carried solely on diction
Free from the fault lines and frictional fiction.
And no one is at fault
Hurt never is the aim
Everyone knows getting burned is just part of the game
A Rube Goldberg Gestalt
Asphalt glaciers in ablation
An ecosystem going extinct in this
Seedy subway station
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